Wednesday, February 14, 2007
1:05 AM
I'm not going to talk about the details during my last day at work, which was last Friday, Feb. 9th.
Let's just say it had its sweet and bitter moments. I was overly touched with everybody's efforts to wish me the best and provide me with mementos during my 7 months stay at SMG.
But something just had to ruin that day. Which I could've dismissed as something which was coming anyway, or a deliberate attack to my forced chirpiness and nonchalance that day. It was something that had me bawling Sunday afternoon.
Anyway, I'm over that already, and it's kinda hard to adjust to the bum days again. I mean, I know it's not wise to resign and not have a job to transfer to, but I'm still in this state of limbo. I'm torn between pursuing what I already know how to do (convenience), and trying something new again. I mean, I'm still young, and I can still learn while I'm still young.
But is that just a waste of time?I'm frustrated because there are so many things I'm interested in doing, but I can't seem to pinpoint what I really want to do among them. I slowly realize how such a ms. play-it-safe I am. Am I that timid to take the leap? I seriously don't know.
I know my options. I just don't know which one I have to take. I just know what's most convenient.
I've been irritated with my dad lately, because he's been badgering me about my idleness and lack of action to find a new job. It's so hard to explain to him how I'm still confused with what I want to do. I know he's concerned about me, but his badgering isn't really helping.
Anyway, to help dull the ache of confusion, I spent the night with ex-officemates. We watched Music and Lyrics, which was really cute, mind you. If you're looking for a feel-good movie, then this is it, folks. :)
It was great seeing them again, but it's irritating as well that some of them gave me the cold shoulder as I passed by and attempted a smile and a wave.
Oh well. You never know how sincere people really are until you're down.
O-ho, so it's Valentine's already. I digress. *snort* Happy Singles' Awareness Day, everyone! :D
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